Five months ago, I gathered all my belongs, organized them into a freight, got in my car with my then boyfriend, and moved 2,474 miles west to Bellingham, Washington. It's a little difficult to play this up since I'm the third child in my family to make such a big move. My oldest sister moved away to Texas years ago and my other sister has been traveling the world since she was 17/18 years old and is now settled in California. It's so easy in life to look at people close to us and compare. Now with sites like facebook, we can compare ourselves to people from high school we barely knew. I am one of the worse offenders of this. I look at others and am sometimes in awe of their accomplishments. Or I'm amazed at how confident they seem to be. Luckily, there are those times when their accomplishments have the ability to inspire me to grow.
I'm starting this blog because, well, I have a lot of time on my hands. I moved out here and have not been able to find a job. So instead, I've spent a lot of my time doing research on the internet, reading constantly, watching TV, trying different diets, exercising, and searching. My facebook wall is a little ridiculous and I think it is because of my lack of outlets. I'm learning things that I want to share, but it's the middle of the afternoon on a weekday.
I'm completely full of fear at the idea of doing this. I express random thoughts and facts, but I don't let a lot of people in. When I do become comfortable with someone, I am the complete opposite. I am incredibly honest and easily share all of my thoughts and fears. But, I think this is not that uncommon.
Because of my honesty, I wanted to write this blog. My goal is not to write a blog that makes me sound "all high and mighty". I know I don't have the answers. I know that I am not better than anyone else. I'm here to be honest. When a light bulb goes off in my head, I want to write about it. When something good or bad happens, I want to explore my reactions. I feel like I could write a book with all the thoughts going through my head sometimes. I think each and every one of us could benefit from expressing our thoughts. I think it is important to connect.
